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My oldest brother is a genius. He is a computer and math wizard. He is so smart that the normal world doesn’t work for him. Those geniuses that are so smart they are completely fucked in every aspect of their life?

Yeah that’s my brother, the black hole creating genius, is a black hole of self destruction and inner torment.

3 out of the 5 male figures in my life, have been to jail for felonies.


D.A.R.E. was full of shit. No one ever pressured me to do drugs. They just pressured me to sit like a lady and be hetero.

(via breathingtimemachine)

Depression is so personal and so unique to each of us that when you’re in its teeth, you think you invented it. You can understand your own, but that’s it. When you are severely depressed, it can be more isolating than anything else you have ever experienced. In trying to make someone understand, you can only speak in approximation. You are truly on your own. Henry Rollins (on depression)

And yet he said Robin Williams was a coward….

(Source:, via euphranus)


Caffeine and nicotine are getting me through today

and everyday